Elizaveta Friesem
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Both Sides

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What you see here is a page of my hypertext book Me, Looking for Meaning. Initially empty, it will slowly be filled with thoughts, notes, and quotes. One day, I will use them to write a coherent entry, similar to these completed pages. See this post to better understand my creative process. Thank you for your interest and patience! :)

One evening in May 2022, I was so tired after the long day with the kids. Our youngest son Sky's schedule has shifted that day (a combination of circumstances and our planning), so he was still awake at 10 pm, when he usually goes to sleep at 8. We were finally upstairs, giving him a bath. My husband shared with me with some excitement a page from a comic book Gender Queer, which he was reading though our local library app. On that page, the protagonist of the book just learned from eir (the preferred pronoun: e/em/eir) mother, that she had been considering naming em Robin. The protagonist was upset, because e would have loved to have a gender neutral name. My husband's excitement was understandable: our oldest son (luckily, sleeping already) was actually named Robin partially because we wanted to choose gender neutral names for both our children. I was so tired, though, that I did not feel very excited to see that page. Reluctantly, I asked my husband to give me some more context. He said that this was one of the books at the center of the culture wars, one of the books that is banned in some school (or not even school) libraries, that some people apparently put in a pile with other controversial literature (related to sexuality, gender, race, even Harry Potter because it talks about witchcraft) and set on fire. And even if setting books on fire may not have been as widespread, I knew that fights about book bans were most definitely happening in different states.
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​When I was talking with my husband about this, and later when I was thinking about it while preparing myself for sleep, I felt the emotional pain that I know so well. It's the discomfort swelling in my chest that I came to understand as me trying hard to keep in mind both sides while not losing my sanity. This discomfort is a cocktails of feelings that I experience every time I think about a controversial issue. In the case of Gender Queer, and the cultural wars about books raging in the U.S. at that time, I could probably describe my feelings the following way (in no particular order, since I experience all of them at once, which is why it is especially uncomfortable):
1) Sadness about people who are suffering because who they are contradicts social norms of their environment, in particular people with non-binary identities growing in families and communities that don't support gender-fluidity and queerness.
2) Anger about people who want to prevent self-expression of people with gender queer and non-binary identities.
3) Longing to better understand why some people are so uncomfortable about other people's gender fluidity.
4) Frustration, because I suspect that people who are uncomfortable about gender fluidity, even though who want to burn and ban books like Gender Queer, and not just mean and stupid.
5) Guilt and shame, because that part of me that feels sad about queer people's suffering contradicts that part that want to understand and have a dialogue with those who are against gender fluidity.
6) Fear that people on different sides with be angry at me (especially, I think, on "my side", because it would be a lie to say that I don't have a side, because people on that side may say that I do not truly support gender queer folks and I will wonder if they are right).
7) Intense confusion, because want to keep myself open to different contradictory perspectives and to make sense of all my contradictory feelings.

Even the issue of both sides itself creates a similar whirlpool of emotions. I understand people who are against the "both sides" approach, I am upset that they seem to refuse the complexity that I want to see, I am angry at myself and others, I am afraid, guilty and confused. All of this probably explains why trying to understand both sides is not very popular: who wants to regularly experiences this unpleasant mix of emotions?

***

I believe that the attempt to represent two sides of a conflict is so often criticized because its goal is misunderstood. Say, person A hurt person B. Some believe that when we provide both sides we justify actions on person B. This reasoning is an example of the explain/excuse conflation. This reasoning is incorrect. We can condemn actions of person B and at the same time analyze his/her actions in a way that goes beyond simplistic explanations along the lines of "he is just mean and stupid". Providing a more nuanced explanation is not morally wrong. In fact, it can help us prevent such behavior in the future, both in others and in ourselves.

This is an example of “both sides” that I find unhelpful https://time.com/6173232/lula-da-silva-transcript/ (Brazilian president about Ukraine)

There are seldom truly “both sides”, unless we are talking about a conflict between two people. There are many participants with differing approaches and opinions

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  • About
  • Books
    • Media is us >
      • Principles of communication
      • Micro- and macropower
      • ACE model
      • Description of chapters
      • When conflicts get out of control
    • Hypertexts >
      • Me, looking for meaning >
        • A >
          • Anxiety
          • Am I strong or am I weak?
        • B >
          • Binaries
          • Both sides
          • D >
            • Depression
            • Do children ask themselves about the purpose of life?
            • Doing the right thing
        • E >
          • C >
            • Can I give myself credit for being empathetic?
            • Choice
            • Circumstances
            • Cognitive biases
            • Common sense
            • Communication
            • Content and form of this book
            • Coronavirus and me
            • Culture
            • Cycle of violence
          • Emotional pain
          • Empathy
          • Empathy as a matter of self-preservation
          • Everybody has their struggles
          • Everybody is connected
          • Explain/excuse conflation
        • F >
          • Feelings and emotions
          • Forgetting about your purpose
          • Free will
        • G >
          • Good vs. evil
        • H >
          • How much do we understand each other?
          • Human brain
          • Human nature
          • Human needs
          • Human thinking
          • Human thinking is nonlinear
          • Hypertext books
        • I >
          • I am an optimist
          • Ideas
          • "I'll never understand!"
          • Individual meanings vs. shared meanings
          • Inner compass
          • Interpretation
          • "It is what it is"
        • J
        • K >
          • Knowing your true purpose
          • Knowledge
        • L >
          • Language
          • List of completed pages
          • Literal vs. nonliteral communication
        • M >
          • Make Sense
          • May I meet this, too, with kindness
          • Meaning as importance
          • Mean and stupid
          • Meaning
          • Meaningless
          • Meaning wars
          • Meaning of life
          • Meaning communities
          • Meanings perceived by animals
          • Meaning-seeking vs. meaning-making
          • Media
          • (Mis)understanding each other's needs
          • My quest for meaning
        • N >
          • Norms
        • O >
          • Objectification
          • On being a scholar
          • On being a writer
          • On being right
        • P >
          • Paradox
          • Parenting
          • Privilege
          • Polarization
          • Postmodern worldview
          • Postmodern philosophy
          • Power
          • Power to see things in a certain way
          • Problem/solution binary
        • Q
        • R >
          • Reality
          • Rhizome in philosophy
        • S >
          • Science, religion and art
          • Self-awareness and empathy of higher order
          • Self-awareness
          • Self-empathy
          • Subjectivity and objectivity
          • Suggested citation format
          • Synesthesia
        • T >
          • "The Death of the Author"
          • The importance of having a purpose
          • Truth
        • U >
          • Understanding ourselves
          • Us and them
        • V >
          • Verbal vs. nonverbal communication
          • Violence in the human nature
        • W >
          • What does it mean to "understand"?
          • What is a text?
          • What we can learn about ourselves from media
          • What is "natural"?
          • What's the point?
          • What will this project become?
          • We hurt others when we are in pain
          • Where do meanings come from?
          • Why am I trying to stay sane?
          • Why do people hurt each other?
          • Why is language so unhelpful?
          • Why do everyday objects make sense?
          • Why do misunderstandings happen?
        • X
        • Y
        • Z
      • Power of meanings // Meanings of power
      • It's not about "them"
  • Editing
    • Me as your editor
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    • Not enough
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