My Anxiety

PAGE IN PROGRESS
What you see here is a page of my hypertext book Me, Looking for Meaning. Initially empty, it will slowly be filled with thoughts, notes, and quotes. One day, I will use them to write a coherent entry, similar to these completed pages. See this post to better understand my creative process. Thank you for your interest and patience!

here are a few things that learned about anxiety:
- it is a shapeshifter (appearing in many different forms)
- it does have patterns
-it can seem like it’s useful (to push me to achieve more)
-it is not important why (I have anxiety about certain things as opposed to others - fear of bouncing balls?)
-it is something one “inherits” through genes and environment (link to vicious circle)
-you cannot force it to go away, but you can manage it if you work with it with kindness and patience (mindfulness)

when everything is ok: the feeling that I am forgetting something that might be wrong, the urge to think about it in order to find what’s wrong (ruminating, perseveration)

Connection between perfectionism and anxiety
Anxiety as underlying cause of perfectionism
Being anxious > keep asking yourself , Am I forgetting anything? Have I done enough? Can I do better?

​anxiety and perfectionism > vicious circle

connection between creativity and anxiety: creativity can help soothe anxiety, but it can also trigger anxiety, as my own fight with perfectionism exemplifies